back to the crib!

ahhh well since katie was sick i had her sleeping in my bed and since she was sick so long its been 2 week plus that she has been in my bed. now that we are back from our trip and she is feeling better its time to move her back into the crib. well.... easier said than done. i tried the other night when we got back from our trip and she screamed bloody murder for 5 minutes. usually she cries and whimpers a little just telling us she is tired and not happy that she isn't with us at the time but no not this time she was freaking out so badly i said forget it i'm so tired from traveling i'll just put her in my bed again tonight and deal with this tomorrow and sure enough she went right down. ughh i feel like i'm in for it trying to move her back into her room.
so its the next night and we tried the crib again and again she freaked so bri said just put her to sleep and lay her in bed with you and now that i have my new computer!!!!!!! yeah!!!!!!! i can just be online while she gets good and asleep next to me and then we can move her into her crib when she is sleeping. well we tried that and it didn't work either.

so last night we tried the crib and she slept for 45 minutes and then woke up and realized where she was so she was not happy.when i went into her room as she was still sleepy and just starting to wake up she reached up to me with open arms and a sad face and said MA MA. clear as day! she totally knew what she was saying and it of course broke my heart and when bri mentioned she was scared to be alone i said omg she's coming back in bed with me! i stuck her back in my bed and thought we will deal with it in the morning. awww she is so sweet and just loves being with us. its just easier to have her in my bed at this point but i know i know i have to move her back! she was so cute last night in bed with me. she would sit up, i would give her the pacifier and she would do a face plant into the bed. just fall over face first. well not completely face first but kinda to the side. she would just fall right back over. so she is sitting up but still asleep and once she gets that paci in her mouth and starts to sooth back into a deep sleep she falls over. its so cute and when she is in bed with me she can fall all over the place. i get NO sleep but she does ;) i'm thinking in the crib she wil be able to do this but she will bonk her head all over the crib walls cus she was all over last night. definitely not within crib wail space. she was at the top of the bed, upside down, on her belly, at the bottom of the bed. she was ALL OVER the bed! well we will try again tonight and see if her sleeping with me the past 3 weeks has really screwed this all up! ughhhh
today i tried putting her in her crib for nap. she def did not nap but to keep her from freaking out i just folded laundry in there and hung out with her. i need her to get used to the crib again without automatically thinking i'm just sticking her in there and see ya later! so i just hung out in her room and we took the bumper out again cus she starting to use it to climb up.